Hey!

Hey again!  Have you seen the new lay out my dad did?  Isn’t it cool?  Oh yeah!  THANKS Dad!  You’ve been bugging me to say thanks so I did!  And I really do appreciate it!

Soon I will work on a Anime Pic link thingie!  And I will put all of my pics up!  Cool huh?  Well, I’ma go read what my cousin’s said now...She has a blog now...It’s at http://www.ailsa.lifesreflection.net

Hmmm...It isn’t turning blue...Wonder why?  Well anyways, should you type that in for the URL it will probably pop up, k?  So what are you waiting for, go check it out!  *sees everyone staring at her blankly*

Ugh!  I give up!  Until next time, ne?  Ja ne!

Hey…

Today, it is warmer than it has been it a long time.  Had to say that…

Most of the eighth grade went on a field trip today.  We went to Detroit and got to go on a tour of an Opera house.  It was pretty cool.  Although on the way there we did get lost once.  It was pretty freaky, and kinda funny at the same time.  Well, see ya!

The Lost Boys

I really can’t spell today...It sucks man!  Today, while eating a slightly late lunch, Mom put in a DVD she had bought with her b-day money.  The Lost Boys...I have to say, I really like that movie....

Dad told me that that movie is Aunt Cindy’s fav. movie, and that he had watched that movie enough times for FOUR lifetimes because she watched it so much....I understand why she liked it so much.  It may not be my ultime favorite (that’s ‘cause I don’t really HAVE an ULTIME fav. but anyway...), but it is definitely under my fav. list.

Well, I’m off to go reading some of my dad’s old entries on HIS blog, see ya!

Record Breaker

Hey AGAIN!!!! I’ve broken my own record!  Three entries in one day?  WOW!!!  Yeah...I really meant what I said in my last entry...I mean most of you have read my blog entries since the very beginning...And some of you just popped up out of no where, so I wanted to send special thanks to you, I mean...Well...Like Vicki, you popped up and welcomed me to my teenage years, that made me really happy!  It’s odd isn’t it?  How people who don’t really know eachother can be happy for one another?

Remember how in April of last year I wrote an entry talking about how I didn’t believe in God?  Now, believe me my beliefs are still the same, although Dad says I’m not a true Atheist since I DO believe in some things...Just not God, the Devil, Heaven, and Hell...Although there may possibly be two different areas in the afterlife...One for criminals...and one for normal people....I don’t know anything, of course you’re not supposed to know anything about the afterlife...It’s a mystery and everyone has to wait until they die to find out what the afterlife is like...or if there is one at all...It’s annoying, though, isn’t it?  All these thoughts about the afterlife?  Sometimes...I get scared....I get too wrapped up in the wonder and mystery of life and death and I get confused...Sometimes I’ve even asked myself what my purpose for living is...I mean...actually....I don’t know....what...I mean....

Sometimes I wonder...I know I’m not afraid of Death really...I mean it IS just a whole new adventure...But...Sometimes....I get...Frightened....Frightened by the realization that my life...one life in general...means absolutely...Nothing…

How could one life mean anything?  It’s not like everyone else’s lives stop because one person...one nobody...dies...I mean yeah, we make a big deal out of it, and sometimes it gets put on the local news...but...Do we stop living?  Does the rest of the world stop moving forward because of the loss of one insignificant person?  No.  We move on....And, over time, we forget....I’m not saying that we forget the deaths of our own PERSONAL loved ones...but...We do forget the deaths of those with lives that seem insignificant to us...Don’t we?  Do we really remember all the deaths we’ve ever heard about?  Like the person who sits next to you in class...Do you remember anyone close to them that died?

The sad thing is...We remember people like George Washington, but we don’t remember the soldiers in the continental army who died or anybody else who hadn’t done anything big enough to seem significant in the past to make us who we are...To tell the truth, it wasn’t just the famous people of the past that made a difference...What they did would mean nothing at all...Had not all those other non-famous people backed them up and helped them...The men who signed the United States Constitution...What they did doesn’t mean much...Yeah they did do big stuff, but what about the other people in the first thirteen colonies...They did stuff too, it may have been small, but…

Although the realization that one life means nothing in frightening, attempting to imagine what death is like...The results are even more frightening...Usually I end up with an abyss...A pitch black hole, devoid of life, happiness, everything I know....Curiosity has made me want to delve deeper into my imagination to see what it would come up with...But the abyss always causes me to hold back…

Now...I have to get back on my train of thoughts...Ok, back to the entry in April of last year...Well, anyways I got a good question from one of the people who commented on that entry...I’m sorry I didn’t answer right away, but…

KricketChick asked, and I quote, “But, I must say...you know how they say that the world came from one single atom? One that erupted, and formed the whole world and everything in it? I have a question. Where did that one atom come from? Certainly there is reason to believe that God did that?”

I have gone over a lot of conversations about space and the universe with my father in my mind and I talked about this with him a lot...The question “Where did the Universe come from?” had started a conversation that led to talking about other dimensions and universes…

We talked about the possibility that there was something BIGGER than the universe and that something had happened to create the universe...the galaxy and everything else...There are millions of questions that I can think of that haven’t yet or can’t be answered...I know how the planets were created...But stuff like Pluto and the asteroid belt...I have questions about what happened and how they were formed...Even about the Sun and the Moon...My father told me that it was theorized that Jupiter may possibly be a failed Sun...I have questions about practically everthing in our little solar system...Like why is Neptune on its side?  And why do some planets have rings?  And...I’ll stop there, if I go on I won’t be able to stop the stream of questions I have…

Dad and I theorized that there could possibly be something bigger than the Universe out there...That there could very possibly be other Universes and Dimensions...When I thought about the possibility that there could be something bigger than the Universe and that the Universe was contained in something made me think...Is there something bigger than this something the Universe is possibly in?  And if so does it continue on and on for eternity?  Or does it end?  One thing my imagination came up with...And this was REALLY scarey was that the abyss the Universe might be in was contained in a little musical snow globe thingie and what I found even scarier...My imagination came up with this scene the abyss the Universe might be in was contained in a musical snow globe...And that snow globe was in the hand of a small child, who was holding his mother’s hand with his free one...But the imaginational vision usually ends with the snowglobe in a child’s hand…

Another scarey imaginational (I KNOW this isn’t a grammatically correct word!  But, who CARES???  It was the only word I could come up with to describe the vision-like thing I was trying to describe!) vision is that the abyss the Universe might be contained in...Or the Universe itsself, depends on whether the theory is correct, of course we don’t know how to prove that theory right or wrong, so whatever, back to what I was saying...is contained in a circular diamond, which is on a chain, which is around the neck of what looks like an 8 or 9 year old girl who is standing next to an identical girl wearing an identical diamond on a chain around her neck...And I always want to know who they are...Fate and Destiny?  Life and Death?

But that’s only what my imagination has conjured up....If there is something bigger than the Universe out there...I would like to know what caused the energy that had been compressed into the size of the ball on a pin to blow up and create the universe...I would also like to know why space is black...Then again, there are a million things I want to know...One last thing I would like to ask and then you can leave…

When will we stop asking unanswerable questions and answer them?

Another Thing!

Hey again...Yeah sorry ‘bout this but...I just finished remincing in the past and reading all my old entries......Well I can’t stay longer...I gotta go eat lunch...Just wanted to say “Thank you!”
~Courtney~

Stuff…

Hello...It’s been awhile....I’m not as weird as I was in my last entry…

Dad’s not home!  I had a snow day, that’s why I’m writing an entry!  I’m using Dad’s computer since the power source thingiemabobber blew out on mine…

I’m going to be exactly 13.5 soon...I know, it’s nothing to be really hyper about...but still...I’m a sucker when it comes to EXACTLY how old I am!

You know something weird?  When I finish an Anime series, I get all quiet and stuff...I mean, I don’t know what to do with myself...It’s an annoying feeling…

I watched Resident Evil, the first movie by the way, Wednesday night and now I get freaked over silly things...Like when something falls or I hear a sound I’ve never heard, or maybe I just haven’t noticed, before...I jump more than before...The one scene that scared me the most was the scene where they were standing next to the water filled laboratories and the drowned woman appears in the one lab....I jumped, and then when she opens her eyes, I screamed then...Because of that scene, I don’t like my bathroom anymore...I hate the large mirror above the sink the most...Don’t know why, maybe it has to do with fact that I can’t get the part where the drowned woman opens her eyes....SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD!!!!!!!!!!  I don’t care if she wasn’t no human when she did that....I don’t care if I’m not using no correct grammer...that was super freaky!

Anyways, all week there haven’t been any lunch passes for the library, and THAT was REEEALLY annoying ‘cause they kept sending us outside to freeze man...It was because of the MEAPs that we weren’t allowed to go to the library for lunch, but it wasn’t fair!  Of course the Math MEAPs took three days LAST week and the Social Studies and Science MEAPs took two days THIS week, but there were still people who needed extra time, I didn’t understand that...Of course I had barreled my way through the MEAPs, going back to stuff I learned in earlier grades to answer some of the questions, and had managed to finish all the MEAPs in the hours of the particular class the MEAP tests were for…

This entry is pretty long, I’ll leave you guys alone now...Unless of course, you LIKE listening to me complain about how annoyingly pointless I think the MEAPs are at this particular moment...?

I don’t mean that...It’s just...Well, they’re the MEAPs...And I’m only in 8th grade at the moment, so I’m SUPPOSED to think they’re pointless…

Whatever...See ya later!  Adios!  Ja ne!  Hasta Lavista! Buh-bye....STOP READING ALREADY WILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!  Stop...Nothing happens any farther along...Look, I stopped ranting, so YOU should stop reading...Aren’t you gonna stop?  Please?  FINE!!! *stomps away* GO AWAY!!! I don’t like you no more!  Are you even LISTENING TO ME???  THAT’S IT!!!!! *it turns pitch black* Now will you leave?  You’re ever persistent aren’t you?  Ok, fine...I QUIT!!!!!!! HAHAHAAAA!!!! Now you have no reason to stay!  You can leave now...Anytime is fine with me!  ‘Cause I’m not gonna do anything more...*silence for a few minutes* THAT’S IT!!!! If YOU won’t leave, THEN I WILL!!!! *walks out door and slams it closed behind her*

.........*muffled talking coming from behind door* Never again!  Never again...I mean this is ridiculus, I have to leave because THEY won’t?  Ugh...*muffled footsteps are heard walking away as the voice gets fainter and farther away* I guess I’m just gonna hafta find that portal.......Bishi-world....Obsession.....Doom!

Fruits Basket

Hey!  Haven’t said anything in a while...Sorry…

Not into talking today...My cousin has already commented on that....I’m bored...And well, a little said…

Fruits Basket...An anime I’ve loved since I watched the first episode sometime before Christmas…

Sorry, I watched the last DVD of FB twice and it’s really sad....I’ll be leaving now...See ya....Ja....Ne...Da....